Have you ever had a relationship end that you entirely didn’t want to end? That happened to me with a lovely (or so I thought) Russian woman over a year ago, and I still feel like something inside me has died.
I just feel as if I don’t care anymore about anything, and I know it isn’t a healthy way to be. I was only with her for a few months and then she vanished. I discovered about more than one or two months later that she was married with a kid and was going through a temporary separation when I met her. My heating and air conditioning repair work was in jeopardy last year after she and I broke up, because I was too depressed to make it to work. I think I missed many months of work before finally getting the energy to go back in. It is amazing that the heating and air conditioning pro who runs the heating and cooling supplier shop even let me come back to work. I recognize that he liked the way I worked and wanted to keep me, even though I don’t even know if I would have the gumption to keep someone who missed so much work. I am a heating and air conditioning tech, and have been for a long time, ever since my mom taught me the ropes when she ran her own heating and air conditioning business. I also lost my pops a few months before the Russian affair, so I was going through a lot of loss last year. On top of that, I lost all of my savings from my heating and cooling repair job from too many irrational financial choices. But, one day I am going to make something out of my life I swear! Life life life, what would I do without ya.