I don’t want to call it a bad night of sleep because I have had much worse nights.
- This was actually kind of a normal night of not sleeping so well, as I woke up at about 3am and couldn’t fall back asleep.
My heart speaks the loudest in the middle of the night and it was telling me what needs to change in my life. Some of my friends seem to be living such a cool life, yet I feel like I am not doing all that I should be doing. I am good at fixing my cooling system in my house, among other things. But I feel like I should be traveling more and being more assertive with people I encounter. My HVAC rep buddy told me that I should be out dating women instead of living like a monk like I have been the past year or so. I just feel like I need time to mend my heart after my last breakup and that time alone is good for me. It seems like all the guys talk about at the heating and cooling company is how many women they are dating. I have no stories to tell them except for the latest book I am reading, pretty sad for someone who is in the prime of their life don’t you think? I mainly just work on heat pumps and smart thermostats during the day and go home to be alone again at night. Maybe I should get on a dating site, but that just sounds like a lot of work to me.