I don’t really want to call it a terrible night of sleep because I have had much worse experiences.
This was actually kind of a normal night of not sleeping so well, as I woke up at about 3 am and couldn’t fall back asleep.
My heart speaks the loudest in the middle of the night and it was telling me what needs to change in my life. Some of my friends seem to be living such a cool life, yet I absolutely feel like I am not doing all that I should be doing. I am fantastic at fixing my cooling device in my household, among other things. But I actually feel like I should be traveling more and being more assertive with people I encounter. My Heating and Air Conditioning rep buddy told me that I should be out dating ladies instead of living like a monk like I have been the past year or so. I just kind of feel like I need time to mend my heart after my last breakup and that time alone is fantastic for me. It seems like all the women at the heating and cooling supplier talk about how many ladies they are dating. I have no stories to tell them except for the latest book I am reading. It’s pretty upsetting for someone who is in the prime of their life don’t you think? I mainly just toil on heat pumps and smart thermostats during the day and go back to my apartment to be alone again at night. Perhaps I should get on a dating site, but that just sounds like a lot of toil to me.